3 days to go till I stop working for a significant amount of time. I like that part of it. But I’m honestly scared of the operation. I’ve never been in one. It’s gonna be a general anaesthesia(spelling?), which means I’ll be knocked out while my knee gets screwed around with, literally.

But it’ll be an MC for 6 weeks. I’m also worried if I can’t extend my MC. 6 weeks… I should be walking within 2 weeks, but 4 weeks left is just too short. And besides, I need about 10 weeks before I can nicely clear my offs and leaves in one shot. It’ll be great. But can I get an extension of 4 weeks?

I hope so.

Meanwhile, my new comic isn’t going so well. I wanted to give a preview, but it’s too crappy. Haven’t defined my style. Nuris has gone into chibi drawing 100%. Which is cool and all, but I’d prefer his actual drawings.

Right then. Enough rant. Tomorrow’s Friday, then next Monday, and I’ll probably take a day off on Tuesday, and Wednesday; I’ll be on crutches already.

I mean, Rai, Fuso, AminCina, Kamal, Alimin, and so many others have done it, I should be ok… right?

Lastly, ‘the cosmic fish they like to kiss?’ What the hell is Jason Mraz talking about?? But nice music he’s making.

So I finished watching One Litre of Tears.

And I’m really sad even till now. I was ok after the last episode actually. But now, at home, listening to their soundtrack, it’s just too sad. Aya’s face just appeared in my vision… Really sad.

Me and Shawn entertained some ghosts in the auditorium today, while watching the extremely sad 1 litre of tears. Damn place is haunted I tells ya! Shawn saw something run up the stairs real quick, but I couldn’t see anything on the monitors. Then later, I saw the curtains of the stage move as though it was blown by wind. But hey! It’s the freakin’ auditorium, indoors and air-conditioned. There’s no bloody wind!

We didn’t pay attention to it coz’ we were truly saddened by the show. Shawn, who’s only seen one episode (the last episode that is), was just as moved as I was… Everyone should watch this extreme creation of sadness.

My PC seem ok so far, maybe it IS the power point overload problem. Who knows. But I won’t be shutting down anymore. I’ll just put it to sleep mode. I hope it’ll be ok through my operation.

Damn camera’s spoilt again. Truly fucked up. Now I really want to send it for repairs. I should stop eating at the canteen from now on. How come my new comic Su************ hasn’t made any progress? Slurpees are called Iceys in the USA. I learnt where the word sandwich comes from.

I’m being random. I shall stop now. Bye.

James Bond! I’m not that much of a fan, but since the first Bond movie I watched is Goldeneye, so every other Bond movie I watch is in comparison to it.

And what can I say about Casino Royale? Based on how strong the impression had on me, I’d say Goldeneye has a greater impact, and I watched that on VCD. But that’s probably coz’ I was small and had not exposed myself to really awesome movies… I mean, look at how movies are nowadays. Even Mission Impossible 1 had more impact on me, at that particular time.

However, Casino Royale in itself, is a very good Bond movie. I liked the storyline, the action sequences and the sheer simplicity of it, minus all that gadjets that made Bond look really cheezy and fake. In terms of acting, Casino Royale’s Craig is really good, making the image of James Bond look like someone you don’t wanna mess with; sometimes cool and composed but sometimes rash and careless. It’s a good reboot of the franchise.

The actor however, I still have doubts. Craig’s portrayal of Bond is awesome, no doubt. But I’m still hooked to Pierce Brosnan (especially from Goldeneye) as the real James Bond.
Royale’s Bond seem too super-heroish built, although the movie is the most realistic one yet.

Heh. I’m comparing Casino Royale to Goldeneye a lot. I don’t know why. Goldeneye had a lot of impact on me back then, and I thought it was the coolest Bond movie ever. But all I can say is that Casino Royale is a definite contender…. even in the whole secret agent franchise.

What I’m trying to say here is… GO AND WATCH IT!

I’ve done something really stupid, and lost 120 bucks in the process. The only benifit, if I even consider it as one, is that I’ve done a Bedok-Jurong trip twice over. Which prettymuch boosts my riding confidence.

Stuff ain’t that great with me right now, in terms of material goods. And I still have not decided where to go from here, academically or in terms of career.

Ain’t too good physically either. I miss fasting month, and how good I felt back then. Left leg’s still painful, despite what the therapist told me. Right leg’s gonna go kaput soon enough. And I’m back to pre NS days, which is the most fucked up feeling.

There be more fucked up things in my life right now, and certain losses which I just couldn’t put to words. Been trying to look at the bright side, like: end of NS, slack job as admin, time given (due to my op) and what to do to make the most out of it. And somehow, all those are always overshadowed by all the messed up shit in my life.

The sad song from 1 litre no namida ain’t helping either. Feelin’ so helpless.

I’ve never been this saddened by a series before. I thought I’d check out some videos of 1 litre of tears on youtube, and damn… it’s just so sad… Think it’s wimpy? Go and watch it. You don’t have a heart if you don’t find it extremely sad.

Friday night, and it’s all gone, coz I fell asleep while fixing my comp. Bloody piece of shit comp. Power supply problems is what I have. Keeps tripping and shutting down on its own.

@work, it’s another slack day. And I’ve caught up with the bucket ful of tears show up till episode 9. It was super sad. Now she’s losing her ability to talk. I think the saddest part was in ep 8, where she overheard her classmates voicing out against her, behind her back.

The bogaman’s story… I tried to write a continuation. But this is a problem I face quite often and it led me to stop writing stories since secondary school. I find it awkward to work with familiar names. Sometimes, I’d have a good story, and I don’t know how to name the characters, and I abandoned everything altogether.

That’s it for now. I’m sleepy and I think I’ll work on some CSS again. Gettin’ the hang of it, ya know?!!

I’m addicted… I can’t believe it. But I am. I never thought I’d be addicted to a… drama series! Not just any drama series, it’s a really sad and emotional Japanese drama series. Been watching the show at work, part of the ‘incentives’ of my new ‘vocation’. Life’s good.

Let me think of why I’ve fallen into the trap of addiction…

Is it the extremely cute and irresistably sympathetic girl Ikeuchi Aya, played by Erika Sawajiri?

Is it the immersive acting, dialogue and plot?

Hmm, how come I couldn’t think of anything else?
Well, it must be the cute and ’sad-fate-descended-upon-her’ girl.
Tsk tsk tsk… 15 years old, and the light of her future has just been switched off.
How sad. If somehow you could get your hands on this series, watch it.

Oh, correction. And I always get this wrong. The title is “1 Litre of Tears”
Check out it’s synopsis here.

Oh man! I’m loving this!

Why didn’t I get this post when I first came here!? Why has it got to be store? Oh the immense shit I’ve gone thru just to get here finally!

1st day on the job. Me and iKnow felt like newbies, coz’ we gotta go through orientation again. I’m mostly familiar with all the shit, coz’ I’ve been following the admin guys around doing audi, conference and v.c. But no hands-on experience as yet.

So, today be the first, and it seemed pretty alright… I guess.

Ya know.. if this is how it’s gonna be till I ORD, I think I might JUST go easy on the MC plan. Well, off to work!

Happaeyy!!

Oh, this pic’s a little outdated, but I only recently uploaded it from my phone.

DeepaRaya Celebrations at HQ, which is mainly nsfs sitting together, ogling at the dancers and waiting to be fed. Hmm, sounds barbaric when I put it like that, but yeah, I think it can be summarised like that.

Then came the lucky draw. Last year, I won some Levi’s voucher, which I gave to Apul.

This year… luck shines. I got 9th place, and Sam (middle) got 4th, I think, and Dylan (left) got 2nd, or something. I got myself a panasonic headphones worth 50 bucks! Yay. Always wanted a proper one. So, that’s that.

Outz!

What have I done in the past four days of freedom and work/crap free time?

I feel like I haven’t done anything. But just to make myself feel better, here’s what I think I’ve achieved.

• Started working with CSS. It’s cool
• Fixed and patched up PC hardware problems. Everything is still dangling
• Tried to play warhammer 40K, and failed, realising that I am not meant to play games.
• Started a new comic, with the title… nah, I won’t wanna reveal it now.
• Still deciding on further education. Choices suck.
• Went to library and borrowed some novels (will be in office from here on in)
• Cleaned my room! Finally!
• Watched Samurai Champloo till the very end! It’s good!
• Caught up with movies, such as Crank, and… Crank alone. Heh. Oh, and watched Family Guy, the funniest animation ever.
• Eat like crazy. Wait, this ain’t no achievement!

Well, it seemed like quite a bit, but I feel like I haven’t done shit.
Now the end hath come.
Tomorrow, war begins.
Fucker shouldn’t have messed with me. What a mistake to work hard in that place. Pui!

So I got myself an MC which lasts two days, as planned. But the Spiderman is making a fuss out of it. Haha. Very funny.

Someone who takes MC every single day, changing clinics every few days, not showing up for work and endorsing only after the MC gets so thick, can get away with it. And I can’t? Screw you, motherfucker.

You know what, I think I’ll just disappear earlier. Screw the last remaining days. I have a ‘feeling’, that my knee gave way while I was riding, and I couldn’t lock it! oh NO! Then I’ll be going for a long MC till my operation, which will extend another 6 weeks, and that in turn will extend to another month. Which leaves me enough remaining days to clear my offs and leaves. SO SCREW YOU!

— edited later, at 6pm

Heh, I think I just overreacted. Nothing to it. 12 days more. I’m gone.